I am currently baking a pecan pumpkin pie. Why? Just for the hell of it. I figured I should graduate from cookies to pies. I didn't make the crust though, that will be my next step. But I did make the filling myself, it wasn't a premade one. Now we'll just have to see how it tastes.

Also, I have weight news! I decided to measure myself again and I really can't believe the numbers. I think they're lying.

Old Measurements, from December: (181 lbs)
Bust - 42
Waist - 35
Hips - 42
Stomach at the largest point - 39 1/2

Today's Measurements: (152 lbs)
Bust - 39
Waist - 30
Hips - 36 1/2
Stoamch at the largest point - 35 1/2

I can't believe I've lost that much, but the tape measure (and my old clothes) don't lie. The other day I noticed that I could take off my old jeans without undoing them. And my board shorts (that I pretty much lived in when I was in Texas) don't even stay on my body anymore.

So now I've just got to work on my upper arms and back, which is still a bit chunky. But on the plus side, I no longer have side rolls if I scrunch up my body, so yay! :D

I'm sad because we were supposed to be playing baseball tonight, but it's rainy. I've been asking nature to bring out the sun by this afternoon, but I don't think it'll happen. And it was our last game before the tournament too! Boo-urns!

But aside from that minor upset I have to say that I am quite enjoying myself these days. I remember last year when I used to just sit on my computer for hours on end on my days off and do nothing else. Now when I have time to myself I exercise and read and cook and work on my novel and go for walks (if it's nice out).

On Sunday me and my dad went out on our little boat and just puttered around. He says he's going to sell it soon because he never uses it anymore and I realized that I hadn't been on it in over four years so I wanted one last jaunt. It was very pretty on the water, even if it was a bit chilly.

So that's real life for ya. I may be friendless and husbandless, but at least I'm in shape and enjoying reading and cooking and making a little bit of money too. I'm just laying the foundation for future wedded bliss. Learnin' the skills and workin' on the bod. It won't be long till I snag someone. ;)

I'm currently reading a book called The Rainbow Chasers that I highly recommend to everyone. It's about three brothers who go from Washington to Alberta to BC with their dad to build the perfect homestead. It's like Little House on the Prairie for grown-ups. :)

And my birthday book came in the mail! I decided to get a book about the 3rd Battalion of the 101st Airbone, called Tonight We Die As Men. I've just started it, so hopefully it'll last me until my other books arrive.

I've been going crazy getting books from Amazon. So far I've ordered: Little Women, Island of the Blue Dolphins (loved it as a kid), Instructions for American Servicemen in Britain 1942, Cold Mountain, Articles of War and A Little Love Song. All for only $40! (Most were used and cost only a penny, plus shipping and handling)

I'm all set for a summer of reading!

In weight loss news, I'm only 13 lbs away from my goal. I'm 153 lbs right now and my new work pants (that I bought in May) are already getting too big for me. I can't wait to buy all new clothes! :D

And I'm well on my way to becoming housewife material. The other day I cooked dinner for my family, a real dinner. I have pictures and everything! I made these sliced baked potatoes with cheese and herbs and I cooked up some ground beef in a frying pan (my first time cooking raw meat) and added some cooked peas. And the other day I made sugar cookies in the shape of hippos.

So now I've got cooking, cleaning, laundry, childcare and I'm getting in shape, the only thing left is sewing. I told my mom that one of these days she has to teach me how to sew clothes and dolls and such.

Then I just need to learn how to milk cows and ride horses and I'll be ready to live on my dream farm with my hard working blue collar husband. Yes, chopping wood, feeding chickens, darning socks, making a nice home cooked meal for my man. These things make me all excited. I would seriously be the bestest little Susie Homemaker ever. Because I love to make the people I like happy. I love to do stuff for them.

I keep saying that it's too bad I didn't grow up in olden times where my parents could just marry me off to some acceptable suitor. Now I'm supposed to be all independant and live on my own and work and if I don't want a career I'm apparently defective.

I think I need a time machine.

So first order of business, I'm 158 lbs! Whoo-hoo! That's a total of 34 lbs lost since the end of October. Only 18 more to go now. :D

I played baseball today and we didn't lose too terribly. Sadly the people I have crushes on weren't there. Well I guess it's kind of good because one of them I really shouldn't have a crush on. I didn't get on base at all, but I at least hit the ball so I'm happy.

When I got home my mom informed me that one set of stupid hippie neighbours had been playing the same song over and over again for the past hour and it was driving her crazy. She tried phoning them several times to ask them to at least change the song, but they never picked up. So I decided to blast my music to teach them a lesson. So here is my "Annoy Your Neighbours" playlist:

Devil in Disguise - Flying Burrito Brothers
I'll Tumble 4 Ya - Culture Club
Wake Me Up Before You Go Go - Wham!
Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley
S Club Party - S Club 7
Dr. Jones - Aqua
Rio - Duran Duran
Sex on Fire - Kings of Leon
Lucky Star - Madonna
9 to 5 - Dolly Parton
Candyman - Aqua
Take on Me - A-ha

I went for a walk in the evening and some random hippie told me I needed a tan. Seriously I fuckin hate granolas. They're just as bad as white trash hicks in my opinion. Both are stupid and inconsiderate and let their dogs and children run all over the place and have shitty yards with random crap strewn all over them. Just different sides of the spectrum.

Went to see Wolverine again last night, so here is a proper non-capslock review:

( Thoughts on X-Men Origins: Wolverine )

I love Mondays. It's my weigh-in day! And guess how much I weigh now? I'm 160 lbs! :D I've reached my second goal weight, which was my original goal two and a half years ago! It's so crazy...

I played baseball yesterday and I got on base again. I hit the ball every time I went up, although the first time it was a foul and the third time they got me at first. There were a lot of girls on the other team though that struck out swinging and couldn't hit the ball so I don't feel too bad. It was fun.

Yesterday I went over to my grandma's house and she gave me a newspaper from August 14, 1945, aka V-J Day. It's the Vancouver Sun and on the front page it says "PEACE" in big, red letters. I should take a picture of it so I can show you guys, it's really cool.

Tonight was my first ballgame and I was soooo nervous at first I was shaking. I struck out my first two times up to bat and then on the third time I got a hit and got on base! (Actually got a double on an overthrow) I got to third on the next batter and would've made it home if the following batter hadn't gotten out.

And I didn't do too bad in the field either. (Well not any worse than the rest of the players. Our team is pretty pathetic sometimes.) The guys were all looking out for me, Jeff would tell me where to stand and when to run. It was cold and I was so anxious half the time, but otherwise it was fun!

Also, I'm now 162 lbs, yay! That's 30 lbs lost since I came back home. Only 22 to go! I was wearing a pair of cute short pants tonight that I never would have been able to fit into before. And I didn't feel self-conscious standing in front of everyone.

Man, I really want to see Wolverine again. I told my dad he has to come with me because he skipped out the first time and I know he'll like it. I told him I'd go see Star Trek if he went and saw Wolverine with me again.

I need some more Sabretooth! And this time I will pee right before we go in so I don't get distracted half-way through.

I have all sorts of Victor Creed story ideas rolling around in my head. Just the opening credits gave us so much to work with. I think my next one might combine one of my other favorite things, WW2.

Hmmm, we shall see...

I just watched The Courageous Heart of Irena Sendler, a true story about a Polish social worker who saved thousands of Jewish children in WW2. It starred Anna Paquin and Goran Visnjic was in it too.

It was a very good movie, it's a shame it was just made for tv.

Nothing interesting really happening with me at the moment. I went down to the city last week for my nephew's birthday and we went to the Aquarium. I remarked that Liam was like one of Angelina Jolie's babies with the amount of cameras being shoved in his face by all my sister's friends. I really hate how people are always trying to "capture the moment". Why don't you just live in the moment? Take a photo or two and then enjoy the rest of the time. I don't understand why every single minute of an outing or a celebration has to be captured on film.

Anyway, I found out that my jeans are now officially too big for me as they kept falling down the whole time we were out. I tried to find some new ones at the mall, but to no avail. I'm sort of in between sizes right now. (166 lbs at the moment, my weigh-in is tomorrow so I'll see if I dropped any more)

I can't wait to be able to buy new clothes. I realized that I haven't bought anything new since probably around March 2008. And even then it was only 7$ Wal-Mart tanktops. I bought a new work shirt and a sweater the other day, but those don't really count. It's just really hard to find clothing that fits my chest. I honestly think that if I didn't have these ginormous boobs I would be wearing a medium right now. Instead I'm still in an extra large. ;_;

I want to wear 40s clothes or dress like Cameron!

The last couple of days have been so nice out. It was 20 C today, that's crazy for spring time here. Just last week it was like 5 C and now people are out wearing shorts! (Personally I think it's still a little early for that, but whatev)

Just two weeks until we start playing ball! Eeee! I'm a little nervous. But also excited because hopefully there will be cute boys there. That's really my motivation for doing most things. Going to a party? For boys. Putting on makeup? For boys. Not bein a fatty? Boys.

Speaking of which, I now weigh 168 lbs! I'm just three pounds away from breaking my lowest weight ever record. Hurray! My goal is now to get to 140 lbs by the end of October. I just keep thinking about all those awesome clothes I'll get to wear. I have a feeling I'll become a total shopaholic. I mean if I can't eat whatever I want, then I better be able to wear whatever I want. Fun times.

I bought a magazine with a bunch of smoothie recipes in it, so I can eat more fruit. I plan on making a strawberry-raspberry one tomorrow. I wanted to cook dinner too, but I have no idea how to cook meat. And I hate raw chicken so much, it makes me want to vomit. I can cook the potatoes and the carrots, but meat? No clue. Maybe they'd settle for frozen chicken strips.

I gotta learn how to cook if I'm gonna be a housewife. I can already do laundry, wash dishes and look after small children. Now it's just cooking and blowjobs. And I'm set!

What? These are valid skills that will take you far.

ETA: Oooh, freaky...

Ugh, this diet stuff is hard. I don't mean eating too much, I mean not eating enough.

We had no tortillas left so I couldn't make my feta cheese tortilla for lunch today. So instead I had some tortilla chips with light sour cream and an apple. So I figure since the chips aren't really that good for you I'll have a light snack and a fat free dinner to compensate.

I had a mini box of Froot Loops on my break at work and then I came home and made myself some chicken noodle soup. Then I had a fruit bar for dessert.

I punched it all into FitDay and it came up:

1,197 calories and 20 grams of fat

Arrrg! I should have just had a heaping bowl of macaroni and cheese for dinner or something. I should not be consuming that little. Especially since I biked today and worked for five hours.

And now it's 11:30 and I'm full of soup and I don't feel like eating anything more to make up for it. Oh well, I guess today is just a skimpy day.

It's okay if I don't feel hungry right? I mean it's only bad when your stomach's growling so if you feel full your body's not going to freak out and slow down your metabolism and start piling fat reserves like it's the end of days?

Cause I don't wanna get fat from not eating enough. That would suck.

I wrote some more of my True Blood fic tonight. It's coming, it's coming! I just haven't been that inspired to write lately. And I had to re-do the whole beginning of Chapter 5 so yeah.

I've also been watching bits of pieces of "Supersize vs. Super Skinny" on youtube and it convinced me to try out Fit Day again.

I was curious to see how much I eat in a regular day so I plugged everything into the table and I was shocked at the amount. I discovered that today I only ate 1600 calories and 48 grams of fat. (And that was with a cheaty cinnamon bun for dessert!) The average women is supposed to eat 2000 calories a day and 60 grams of fat.

Whoo-hoo, anorexia here I come! :D

I also biked 7k (20 min) twice today and according to the site I burn up about 2500 calories just from existing so with that exercise I burned about 3000 calories today. That I don't even have! I am using up ghost calories. Oooo, spooky...

I'm waiting till my period's over to weigh myself because I always get all bloated and it messes with the numbers. I can't wait to see what it says! I was a little sad because when I rebooted up my old fitday page it said that my starting weight was 166 and right now I'm 171. Oh well, I should be back down in the sixties pretty soon.

I notice that I don't write nearly enough real life stuff in here. Probably because my real life is boring. But here, I'm going to try.

Yesterday I threw around a baseball with my mom because I wanted to see if I was skilled enough to maybe play for their slo-pitch team this year. I've been keeping score for like ten years now, but I've never felt like I was good enough to play. Now that I'm on the road to skinny-ville I'd like to try it out.

My mom said I wasn't half bad at throwing (which was my main concern) so next week hopefully we'll get to go down to the high school and I can try batting. If I can at least hit the ball, then I will sign up. I mean I know all the rules already!

Today I went out and picked up the fallen branches in the garden, then I went for a walk, then I rode for 7k on the exercise bike. I've updated my diet now too. Bread and chocolate are both on the banned list. The only bread I'm allowed to have now is a tortilla with some feta cheese for lunch. And the only chocolate I can have is some of my fat free chocolate gelato for dessert. Pasta has been put on the cutback list as well as cheddar cheese.

No more cheese buns at work or homemade desserts!

If I get down to under 160 lbs by my birthday then I can have some cake. That shall be my goal. You got that, body?

OMG!!

Okay so even though the scale still read 172 today I just somehow felt skinnier. I put on my trusty black Old Navy hoodie and it was actually kinda baggy on me! So instead I put on my kind of too small grey Urban Planet hoodie and it fits just right!

Anyway, I decided to measure myself, but I'd forgotten the old numbers so I was like "meh, that's cool I guess" when I read the new ones. Then I went and looked them up and I can't believe it.

Old Measurements, from a couple months ago: (181 lbs)
Bust - 42
Waist - 35
Hips - 42
Stomach at the largest point - 39 1/2

Measurements today: (172 lbs)
Bust - 41
Waist - 34
Hips - 40
Stomach at the largest point - 38 1/2

That is so exciting to me! Also I forgot to mention before that my new bra is a smaller size than my old one. I'm now a 36 DD instead of a 38 DD. *dances*

I've become almost narcissistic now. I'm always looking at myself in the mirror before bed and I'm always touching my stomach.

I can't believe that all this is mostly from diet alone, it's crazy. (Although I'm sure the 30 min walks to work also help) I can't wait until the summer time, I hope to be down to about 155 lbs by then. I know I can do it!

I'm 176!

So I guess the upside of being sick for two weeks and having no appetite is that you can lose 2 lbs without doing anything! Hurray!

That makes it a total of 16 lbs that I've lost since the beginning of November. Only 6 lbs to go before I reach my previous weight from two years ago and only 16 more to go before I reach my goal. (Well my first goal anyway. Gotta take it one step at a time after all)

It sucks that I haven't been able to exercise at all for so long, but I feel that I should be fully over my cold before I do any strenuous activity. I don't want no relapses!

Anyway, I was watching American Idol tonight and I was deeply saddened by the lack of Michael Castro. His screen time totaled literally two seconds and that was just in the background. I needs me some Castros! I mean look at this picture:



Disclaimer: I did not add the lolcat speak on it and I'm still looking for the original, but still isn't it completely adorable? Although it is giving me naughty thoughts that I'm having a hard time keeping out of my brain because GOOD GOD they are actually real life related and that is just horribly horribly wrong no matter how hot it might be to see them makeout a little and dear sweet Jesus what have I become?

I BLAME YOU GUYS